“Yesterday, I was clever
So I wanted to change the world.
Today, I am wise,
So I am changing myself.”
There’s been lots of changing going on around here.
Even before I quit/let go at my job, I was making some changes in my home life. Not the “relationship” impacting changes with my husband, daughter and grandson (although, I supposed in a way that is ALWAYS happening, and all positive).
These changes pertain to my/our physical space. I am the “home maker’ in the family. Always have been, always will be simply because it’s who I am and I love doing it. I “home up” where ever I find myself, be it a teeny tiny one bedroom apartment in the city, a half finished cabin in the desert, or a more roomy home in the Burbs. I can’t remember ever NOT arranging my space, making do with what I had, trying to make things as nice as possible with what was at hand.
After living with me for so long, my family is no longer surprised to wake up in the morning to find the furniture rearranged, hutches done up differently, or artwork hung some other way. Don’t get me wrong. In many cases, once I’ve found the IT Spot for how I want a china cabinet to look, for example, I may not change anything about it for years!
But there’s this other thing that happens. Early in the morning, while everyone else is sleeping and I’m having my coffee/meditation time, I tend “LOOK” at stuff. If I’m in the kitchen, I look at the antique hutch that holds my vintage table and bar ware, and my big glass canisters holding baking ingredients. I might wander into the dining room and look at the corner units I have in there, and check out the way things are set up, or into the living room where I have a lighted display case full of Carnival Glass.
Something about the way one of these hutches is arranged will bug me until I reach that “OK” moment with how it looks. I’ll keep arranging and rearranging until my sensibilities tell me to stop, even if it’s just a minor adjustment. It’s unclear whether this need to find “OK” is just having a natural eye for design, a need for control, or needing to tap into a Feng Shui feel, but
And I’m ok with that. I like order, and have a natural bent towards organization. I also believe that our exterior space impacts our interior space. Having an organized life – be it at home or in business – reduces waste, stress and time. (Side note: Orderly does NOT mean dust free. Ha!)
And visa versa, as well. Our inner state can have a direct impact on our outer world. You know this is true if you’ve ever lived with someone with mental health challenges, be it depression, anxiety or some other mood disorder.
ANYWAY, when the mood strikes to change things up, I like to follow my inclinations and this past week I took advantage of an empty living room to make a BIG change (furniture moved so Mr. Man could clean the carpets). Seeing the empty “canvas” in front of me, I got to work right away. A couple new pieces of furniture, a new rug, and Wha Laa! I just put the finishing touches on a whole new look. The room looks more spacious, there’s plenty of seating while still being homey and welcoming, and all just in time for the holidays. And I reached OK!
I mentioned “control” as a possible motive and, in the case of my living room, there might be a little to that (although our old couch WAS getting a bit worn in places…) There is so much happening “OUT THERE” right now that I have no control over. For example, we recently got the news my grandson has ADHD, Dyslexia and CAPD, and that he’s being bullied at his new school. Other than support him emotionally and educationally here at home (and a TON of prayer), there’s little I can do to change that. I also can’t change the ever rising cost of living here in Southern California, the fact that ageism is alive and well in the job market, my aging mother’s continuing decline or what’s happening on the global political scene.
But, I am not powerless. With just a little money, a lot of elbow grease and even more imagining, our home has undergone a positive shift. Almost every room in the house has now undergone some sort of change that support and assist all of us in differing ways…AND that look really cool.
Which makes me feel good….Makes me feel like I have a purpose and that there is a PLAN for good things for all concerned . Which, in turn, makes me feel at peace.
And inner peace is where it’s at.