Early Fall days are some of my favorites.
The change in light, the change in colors…..the change in me.
The vapid summer days here in So Cal drain me, both physically and energetically. Yes, I love the sunshine and – occasionally – the longer days. But we’ve had a helluva hot, humid summer this year and I couldn’t be happier that darker cooler mornings are here with the promise of nights sleeping with open windows vs. A/C dronings.
Suddenly, I feel like cooking again. Hearty, earthy dishes like pot roasts and soups and fruit pies. The gem-like ambers, oranges and browns of nature have inspired me to decorate for Halloween. I’ve been feng-shuing, decluttering and re-organizing and
I feel like writing again.
It’s been nearly 6 months since my last post and about that same length of time since I’ve written anything for my book (and thank you to those that reached out to make sure all was well in the midst of my silence. It is and I am. Thank you, Jesus, for curing the incurable).
I recognize several things contributed to my stall out. Life happens and priorities shift. For example, I’ve been working two full days a week since the end of May, and I’m also responsible for making sure our grandson gets to school by 7:50 every morning. My morning routine – and typically my most creative time – has altered.
But in all honesty, it’s been more about motivation. I mean, even with a printer that didn’t work and a computer that barely did, I could’ve been writing. I still journal most days. But the book or the blog? Well…I just haven’t been feeling it.
Thankfully, lack of inspiration isn’t a permanent condition. Ask any artist. Everyone goes through dry spells or blocks. Muses can be fickle companions. Then again, I tend to enter new projects with all pistons firing and my foot to the floor – which might be why I seem to excel at short term commitments and struggle a little with those that take a loooonnnnggggg time to complete. I like to finish stuff. Check it off my To Do List.
Or maybe, I just like Instant Gratification. Ha!
But I’ve learned the importance of giving myself the grace to put something down and to feel my way through my creative endeavors. Sometimes the best thing I can do to reboot is to walk away. Like, literally, take a walk. Hike in nature. Socialize with friends.
In years past, unfinished projects use to mock me…. half finished piles creating feelings of guilt and (depending on how much money spent on supplies) shame. But if Cancer taught me anything, it is this: Life is short so focus on who and what is really important – and let the rest go (temporarily or permanently, depending).
So. Here I am. Yesterday I cleaned and reorganized the office and the computer is fixed. A new printer is being delivered on Tuesday along with a new mouse pad to replace the one I LOVE but was looking as grimy as our grandson after a day at school.
And I’m writing…..
The house and yards look festive. It’s a nipply 70 degrees, the windows are opened wide and the sun is just peeking over the hill. I’ll be doing breakfast and a little shopping with girlfriends this morning, and then enjoying the rest of the day doing “whatever” since all my chores are done. Maybe I’ll plant a few seasonal flowers or make that wreath I’ve been thinking about. Or, maybe I’ll just enjoy the peace and quiet of an early Fall afternoon with the house to myself.
Fall. My favorite time of year.