When someone you love says something cruel, abuses the love you have for them, and cuts you out of their life, it can feel as if your heart shatters into a million pieces.
In one sense, love is always a crap shoot. Every time we extend love to another, we risk. We risk rejection. We risk betrayal. We risk Euphoria :) However, there is one guarantee that comes with Love: It always exists somewhere in our lives. We just may be looking in the wrong place for it.
One of my favorite Bible passages says this. It’s 1 Corinthians 13, from the Message:
If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all It’s mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
Now, I know the Bible isn’t really popular with alot of people. It’s been tampered with on so many levels, it’s almost impossible to know fact from fiction. However, I still appreciate the wisdom that I find in it – just as I do with the wisdom I find in other texts. Even beloved fairy tales like “The Little Mermaid”…
“We have not immortal souls, we shall never live again; but, like the green sea-weed, when once it has been cut off, we can never flourish more. Human beings, on the contrary, have a soul which lives forever, lives after the body has been turned to dust. It rises up through the clear, pure air beyond the glittering stars. As we rise out of the water, and behold all the land of the earth, so do they rise to unknown and glorious regions which we shall never see.”
Love never gives up…never looks back…and never ends. How powerful that thought is to me today, as I consider this person that I love so much, and who has walked away from my life yet once again. This is not the first time she’s left in a heated, dramatic huff. The first time was when she was 15 years old. The second, when she was 18. And now, at 20, she’s doing it again. Interestingly enough, she left about this time 2 years ago: The month of October. I’m sure there’s a key there for me, but I haven’t gotten to it yet. One key I do have is this: It’s not about ‘me’, no matter what she says. Having a daughter with the sorts of emotional dis-ease that mine has, has been my greatest Teacher in lessons on Unconditional Love. For that I am grateful, but I didn’t ‘attract’ her behavior. And I certainly didn’t cause it – any more than I caused my father’s lung disease or my cousins cancer.
But I do have to deal with it, the best I know how. And for me, that means loving her from a distance. Keeping healthy boundaries and an open heart. Forgiving her is now second nature. But more importantly, I will not give up on her because I see her with the Eyes of Love. The eyes that look for the best in her, and that don’t look back.